Adjustment

I started this blog with grandiose intentions and like many things it fell through the sewers into a sort of “underground”, existing and functioning without my continued facilitation. You could say that currently my relationship with painting or art in general is conflicted.  You could say a lot of things, all of which really sum up to an identifiable source which I choose not to name for obvious reasons.  In my life I am pulled in many directions, by this I mean that I have a rather large mass of interests I try to juggle with little success.  A lack of decision creates stress and I find that necessity demands of me choices as to what interests I shall continue.  By honoring this blog I feel as though I am committed to my past and thus equally honoring it as a result.  For me this becomes the crux of the process of my life, knowing when to let go for the sake of progression.  Never have I been good when it comes to synthesizing past experience with present motivations or proclivities.  Having swam for 12 years I retain little to no lessons and often fail to mention this lot of time as existing in my life, I simply moved on out of necessity and failed to look back.  As I continue this diatribe I cannot help being reminded of a general lack of something. Anyways, to sum up the point of all this disparate information and how it relates to the site.

It is important to strive for understanding, reasoning your way through vast arrays of information be it art or music, literature etc.  Starting this blog was a method for pushing my own sense of things, because on a daily basis most of the conversations I have with people pertain to work or dramas relating to trivialities.  When I was in high school there was a poster that loosely stated “small people talk about people, ordinary people talk about things, extraordinary people talk about ideas.”  In my life I have been all these, often in the same sentence.  In my experience the later of the three is the most constructive and serves to facilitate further progress both mentality and spiritually.  Cultivation of thought is the cornerstone of self actualization.  Since I neglected this blog I have come to see first hand how debilitating it can be to pacify the mind with mundane day to day gossip.  You lose the feeling of potential.

of course life isn’t as melodramatic as I have written.  It can be as simple or complex as you make it.  A simple check receipt can be profoundly illuminating to one who perceives it as such, to another it is trash.